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Everyone gives up on me or uses me to their advantage

People offend /me/ and then /theyre/ the ones who stay mad

They tell me they care and then when it comes to something thats important to me they judge me for it or think they have the right to give me their opinion about it, ignorantly

People expect me to respect their time but never consider the fact that I give up my own time for them while they protect their own

I always think maybe this person is the one that actually gives a fuck

And then they disappoint me

Just a Couple Thoughts

I have a lot that I could vent right now but I am trying my best to stay positive atm so instead I'm going to write it all out and delete it.

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There. Gone.

I was just having some negative and hurtful thoughts and I really hate that I think things like that sometimes, because I like to think that I have the potential to be a good person, but sometimes certain things happen that bring the worst out of me. Now I feel a bit refreshed having typed it all up and deleting it.

Cassey Ho, on her blog, addressed some of her followers having a problem with the way her thigh gap looks, and she said she doesn't care because she loves her legs.

I think it was a great reminder for me that it's more important to make yourself happy before pleasing others. Because I have definitely been lacking in this area, I think now more than ever it is important for me to focus on my own happiness and well being. I've neglected it long enough, and I'm tired of other people trying to change me or make me do things that I'm not comfortable with.

So yeah.

Just had to type this up because it was bothering me.

Self Evaluating

I always thought that having a lot of followers on twitter or tumblr or whatever would be great but you know what it sucks.

It makes me want to delete my tumblr. It makes me want to deactivate my twitter.

Actually, twitter itself just makes me so mad.

I see posts from other people and assume theyre about me and then I get angry and say things I don't mean and they get angry and it's this endless fight for no reason really.

I'm tired of it and I want to just delete everything.

Yeah, I know I've done wrong things and I know I've made mistakes and believe me I am paying for them right now. I really am. You don't need to tell me for me to know. I know and I'm just trying to move on and past them but it's really fucking hard when people keep bringing them up.

I am TRYING. Very much. I just want to let things go and this is my way of doing it. Once I get over it I'll be fine but if you keep chastising me for every little thing I say then that's never going to happen.

PLEASE, give me peace. I beg you.