Pitiful

Sometimes I make myself out to be a really pitiful person instead of being strong or whatever in front of people even though in reality I am a lot more hardheaded and I don't actually pity myself like

I guess sometimes I just want people to feel sorry for me even though I don't really have a reason?

But like, at the same time it's like...
I don't need people to pity me, I'm totally fine handling my problems and shit on my own

So idk why I do it but instead of like, voicing my anger or whatever about things I turn it around and make it less about the things causing me pain and more about /me/ causing painful things to happen.

idk if any of that makes sense but it does to me/