June is almost oVER?

I had so many goals at the beginning of the summer and I haven't accomplished one of them.

I am extremely disappointed in myself. Time to step it the fuck up!

Baking!

So, again, I have failed on the diet thing and I'm not too motivated about it so we'll see how that goes but...
I have been baking lately!

On Wednesday, I bought some Andes Mints and made some cookies with them and they were AMAZING.
If you like minty things you should def try it!

Then yesterday, I tried doing homemade soft pretzel bites and let me tell you, the recipe I found was perfect. It's more difficult than most snacks are to make but the finished product is sooo good! They tasted exactly like Aunty Anne's or Wetzel's Pretzels I swear.

Tooo good.

I was very proud of my successes but now I kind of need to stop with the food because I'm trying to drop fat! Anyway if you have some extra time and love baking I suggest trying those two.

Hanna

June 3rd

Today I tried a more difficult nail design than I am used to from cutepolish, and it came out decent :)

That's really all the good news I have...

Unfortunately today is another lazy day, probably because I am just so exhausted. It's really sad, because the people that I would love to keep in touch with and have formed a really good, honest relationship with are the people who will be furthest from me in the future and most difficult to keep in contact with. I wonder if that's just a test to see if we're really meant to be friends or not... Either way, I'm going to miss them immensely while I deal with having those people that I'm just tired of around.

Second, I've realized that almost every single thing that you do will be taken in the wrong way.

Don't text someone back: It's because you're purposely ignoring them.

Don't give someone the attention they think they deserve: It's because you don't care about them.

Act a certain way: It's most definitely because of some malicious hidden intentions of yours.

It's like no one in this entire world has any empathy or understanding left in them and only think of your actions and how they affect themselves. Maybe, just maybe, if once in awhile people tried to truly understand why you do the things you do, they would find that most of the time it has nothing to do with them.

혈... I think I've just proved to myself something I've been battling with...

Well, I'll work on that I guess.

But in all seriousness, don't react to something with just your suspicious assumptions...instead try to understand before you make any judgment.

In other news, I listened to EXO's new album and while I cannot say that I like the whole "Wolf" concept (at all btw) I do like the rest of their music and find it pretty good so props to them.

Also, I'm becoming more of a fan of American hip hop music and all that stupid shit, which is weird because besides being catchy there's nothing that great about it. I guess music is interesting because it grows on you; the more you listen to a certain type of music the more you inevitably fall in love with it...which makes music both mesmerizing and kind of scary.

Lastly,

I am thoroughly upset with myself because I have not dieted nor worked out in the past four days and it's definitely taken a toll on my mood and self worth so I need to head to the gym, if not tonight, then tomorrow! I also need to stop carelessly spending money; I bought three new nail polishes today which is worth the $6 but...I need to stop now!

Have a nice day if you're reading, which I doubt,

Hanna

Today is June 1st, 2013...

...and I am thoroughly worried about my summer.

First of all, being a teenager, the summer is meant to be a time of long nights, days out with friends, excitement, and all that good stuff, which has never really been a super important part of my life but a social life is definitely a necessity. However, where I live, any type of 'hang out' must include spending money. Even if it's just that $4 spent on a smoothie whenever you hang out, that crap adds up after a while. And I can't just say no when friends ask me to do something with them, because one: that'd be rude, and two: I genuinely want to hang out with them. Even if I want to go to, say, the pool, I have to bother my parents enough to let me take a car, and then there's the money for gas. And after you swim all day, it's a given that you go somewhere to eat. So again, money.

There's always the option of getting a job, but that cuts down your summer tremendously, and makes you unavailable to hang out most of the time. Even if I manage to land a job, the money I earn is probably going to be saved for college expenses, since school starts up again in September.

Speaking of which, that brings up another point.
This is my last summer in Katy before I move on to college...so it's a given that I spend as much of it as I can with my high school friends. Right???

But then, being one of those self conscious, low self-esteem individuals, I also want to spend as much time as possible working on my weight and self image. This means more time working out...and even less time for friends or working a job. And then, of course, there's the dieting....which makes hanging out kind of hard because one: there's nothing to do here except eat (I'm serious) and two: being with friends around food is very, very tempting.

Then there are all the goals that everyone sets for themselves at the beginning of summer that never get accomplished and you forget about until the end of summer when it's pretty much too late... For example, this summer I really want to dedicate a couple hours a day to reading books and studying language. Coupled with the time I want to spend teaching myself dances and learning piano, that leaves little time for all the other crap I've previously talked about.

So...as great as it is to finally be in summer season, and have long days to do what I please...I am going to have to seriously prioritize and manage my money.
This brings me to the point of this post... (I promise it wasn't to state blatantly obvious facts about summer)... which is that I have created this blog to keep track of my goals. I am determined to make a change this summer and even if it requires social networking, it's going to happen.

I don't feel like proofreading so sorry for mistakes.

Hanna

P.S. new sports bras and coral nail polish. Totally worth the buy.