Image v Self Image

I absolutely hate it when people tell me I don't need to lose weight.
Do you honestly think I want to lose weight because I care what you think of my body? Hell no, it's because I want to feel comfortable with my own body. I honestly find it completely rude when other people think they can judge your decisions on what to eat, how much to eat, what diet you're on, how often you work out, how you workout, etc because all of those things involve personal decisions and making yourself feel good and it has nothing to do with other people. Don't judge me because I'm uncomfortable with my body, you have no right. I don't give a shit if every person in the whole goddamn world thinks I'm attractive, if I want to lose weight I'm going to do it.
There's nothing wrong with self-improvement and setting goals and such when related to food and exercise gives you something to feel accomplished about. Lately, I have been missing this sense of accomplishment that I used to have through other things. So why the hell can't I want to work out? It isn't because I'm conforming to society's judgment of beautiful, nor is it because I want to impress other people. I want to get fit and see progress and complete daily goals and weekly goals and monthly goals and feel proud of myself for them. I want to show myself that I can do it, so I can be confident in myself and comfortable with my body, regardless of what it looks like. Even if I look the same to other people, the fact that I put in effort and time into taking care of myself makes me look better to ME.
So fuck all those people who think they're doing you a favor by telling you that you're pretty anyway and don't need to work out. They make me feel guilty for wanting to, and that's pretty fucking messed up. I shouldn't have to feel judged for my decision to work out or not. No one has that right except me.

Food

For some reason every time I eat meat, or like a real meal instead of just snacks and things my stomach starts getting churny and it flips and does weird things and it feels like I need to throw up or something like that and it makes noises and stuff and it's gross and I feel embarrassed because it's literally after every time I eat and I don't understand why...it's been like this for like a couple years and I used to think it was just because I was having anxiety issues but even like, in the comfort of my dorm I'm just like..I feel disgusting after eating....I know I should eat but when I do it's like discomfort for hours and I don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything so I feel like I shouldn't and ugH it's frustrating and idek why this is like a paragraph it was supposed to be one sentence goodbye

July Faves!

This month I tried a lot of new things and it was a really enriching month for me because I spent time in Waco, Austin, Kansas, and then Waco again so I'm kind of all over the place but I'll try to list a couple favorites!

Fashion / Beauty

• Sally Hansen XTreme Wear "Breezy Blue" nail color
• New York Color Matte Top Coat
• Clean & Clear Morning Burst Oil-Free Facial Cleanser
• ELF Healthy Glow Bronzer

TV Shows

• New Girl
• The Mentalist
• I Hear Your Voice

Music

• It's Poppin' - 4minute
• Radioactive - Imagine Dragons
• Forget About Me - Hologram Film
• Midnight Taxi - AA
• Bulletproof Pt. 2 - BTS
• No More Dream - BTS
• Waiting For You - Mr. Mr.
• No No No - A Pink

BOYS (who have been on my mind this month)

• Changsub as always
• Sungyeol
• Jay Park
• Woohyun
• _____

Internet Faves

• Bubzbeauty

Food/Drink

• kimchi
• hummus
• coffee
• coffee
• coffee
• omg coffee

Hanna's Life Tip #1

When you're unbearably hungry, do not eat fast food or unhealthy snack food. You will overeat and then feel like shit afterward.

You'll feel better if you take the time to cook yourself a healthy and nicely sized meal, one that doesn't fill you to the brim but satisfies your hunger.

Baking!

So, again, I have failed on the diet thing and I'm not too motivated about it so we'll see how that goes but...
I have been baking lately!

On Wednesday, I bought some Andes Mints and made some cookies with them and they were AMAZING.
If you like minty things you should def try it!

Then yesterday, I tried doing homemade soft pretzel bites and let me tell you, the recipe I found was perfect. It's more difficult than most snacks are to make but the finished product is sooo good! They tasted exactly like Aunty Anne's or Wetzel's Pretzels I swear.

Tooo good.

I was very proud of my successes but now I kind of need to stop with the food because I'm trying to drop fat! Anyway if you have some extra time and love baking I suggest trying those two.

Hanna