Shopping

Honestly, I don't have shitty style, but every time I see cute clothes or can pick out a cute outfit it wouldn't look good on ME. This is probably because I'm short and stout and on the chubbier side but it's really depressing because honestly, I DO have good style and I can find cute clothes all the time but I just can't wear them.

On top of it, I feel self conscious trying on cute clothes because I feel as if I'll be judged...why is THAT girl trying to wear THAT? You know..stuff like that..
Then i feel self conscious WEARING cute clothes because if I wear shorts I feel like I'll be chastised for it but then again what else are you going to wear in 100 degree weather I mean really.

Shopping, for a girl, SHOULD be fun right?
But it just isn't.

insecure

It's so hard to be happy with who I am.
I know everyone has imperfections but to me, other people's imperfections make them beautiful...while my own...make me undesirable.
When I see pictures of myself, I cringe...and can almost feel the disgust I'm sure other people feel.

I wish I had confidence in who I am,
but I'm sure that won't happen unless I become skinnier, more beautiful, and more fashionable.

Ha.

Hanna