Pet Peeve!

I just felt the need to say this but I really HATE being looked down on.
I don't think it is at all necessary to try to prove that you are better than someone. It doesn't matter!
I don't care if you think you know more than me, think you're prettier than me, think you're funnier than me, cooler than me, better than me in any way... Respect is still something I deserve, especially when, despite little degrading comments made to make me feel like I am less than you, I give you respect.
And I do not appreciate when people put me on the spot and run me into a corner with a question that makes me lose, either way I answer it.
I am not pitiful and I am not less than you and though I am being nice right now, I am not the type of person you want to piss off. I'm giving you a chance to make a good impression and you haven't so far, so don't be surprised when I stop laughing it off when you insult me and come back with something bitter.

Ok have a nice day i just needed to get that off my chest ^^

Alone Again

I think night time is the worst....I start to feel useless and annoying and lonely all at once when it gets dark and I'm left alone with my laptop and my messy room..

My friends contact me but
it's not like they really want to talk to me

I kind of miss the days where people would rush to text me when something good happened in their life...at least then I could be excited for them even if I'm not currently excited for myself about anything.

Oh well anyways back to watching kdramas or doing something completely unproductive.

Goodbye for now~

Feelings....

From now on, I'm keeping my thoughts to myself.
It seems like most people misinterpret the things I tell them and I come off as a total bitch...
Well now to avoid that I'm just not going to tell people things.

Also,
I think the fact that I want to love someone is starting to have adverse effects on me and I'm mistaking feelings of friendship for a crush. Should probably stop letting that happen to me.
Then again, maybe this time it's real, right?
Nah.

Lol.

Hanna

ramblings about things

I just want to read books and find someone to talk to about them and discuss and argue and learn and test each other and broaden my knowledge of the world...

Then I want to write beautiful things and have someone read them and criticize and help me improve and add their own wisdom to what I write so I can become more open minded...

And then I want to read others' writings and talk about what they love and try to appreciate what is important to them and have them lecture me on life and show me in detail the things they obsess about and why they do and me not understand it but just feeel their love for it and continue to learn...

And then I want to go places with someone and discuss things that are happening in the world and debate and observe things as they happen and study and take photos and just live in the world as it is...


I don't want to go to the movies, or play video games, or go bowling... I just want to talk.

I'm tired of these immature friendships where all we can find to do is talk about the other people around us and the silly drama that goes on in our daily lives that doesn't have any meaning at all in the world so we replace decent, worthwhile conversation with "fun"...

As Eleanor Roosevelt would say, "great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people." I want to have a great mind.

Hanna

Pride

Honestly, I just wanted to be on good terms. I wasn't purposely doing anything to hurt anyone and I made mistakes and didn't realize it but I think it's really immature to let pride get in the way of having a good relationship with someone as you say goodbye - especially someone you've known and been close with for so long.
However, that isn't my decision and I guess I'm going to have to accept that reality even though I don't agree with the way things were handled.

We all make mistakes but being rash because of others' mistakes hurts more than accepting your own and forgiving those of others.


And again I am faced with guilt.

As always.

Hanna