Read the Introduction's on my two new blogs and it will explain. My personal blog will have posts similar to the ones on here, and my kpop one will have posts similar to the kpop posts I have on here. I won't delete this blog.
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Monday, March 17, 2014
New Blogs.
I probably won't be updating this blog any more.
Read the Introduction's on my two new blogs and it will explain. My personal blog will have posts similar to the ones on here, and my kpop one will have posts similar to the kpop posts I have on here. I won't delete this blog.
Read the Introduction's on my two new blogs and it will explain. My personal blog will have posts similar to the ones on here, and my kpop one will have posts similar to the kpop posts I have on here. I won't delete this blog.
Friday, November 22, 2013
Life Update !!
This week has been a little strange but nonetheless kind of fun since I kept myself busy. I just worry about my diet; I haven't really had a real meal in a while so maybe tomorrow I will reverse that. We'll see. Anyway, Tuesday VIXX released their video and I was kind of freaking out about it all day and then I had a KUSA meeting where we watched Speedy Scandal which was a really funny adorable movie and I liked it and now I finally know where this gif came from laughs.
Wednesday I went to a friend's place to bake and it was kind of a fail; we used a pot instead of a bowl and then aluminum foil instead of a cookie sheet...Anyway the cookies didn't turn out that great but oh well. Then I went to a jazz concert for my friend because he couldn't go and it was for a grade or something so anyway I sat through that which was interesting and it made me slightly miss doing music but at the same time I feel like I made the right decision by giving it up, you know?
Thursday a girl in my class and I fangirlled a lot about VIXX and kpop and shit and it was nice..it's kinda funny how all of the friends that I make are because of kpop ^^ At first I felt really lame because of that but a friend of mine told me that people make friends because of similar interests and there is nothing wrong with that so I'm just going to own it and be proud of that aspect of me. Thennnn, I hung out with a friend and then studied for my Microeconomics midterm which was today, so I bought two Monsters (oops) and stayed up really late studying then woke up early to study again so I'm kind of tired.
It was SO COLD today like literally I was freezing my fucking ass off and I forgot an umbrella so I had to go to class all wet because it was raining and literally I was dripping wet onto my paper. So I made a point to go home and get an umbrella before my midterm and it was just a really bad test and I didn't even finish and I'm REALLY upset with myself about it but I'm trying not to think about it.
Anyway so then me and my friend decided to go catch a movie so we caught a bus that had a transfer except the bus we needed to transfer on was like...30 minutes late so we basically stood in the freezing rain for an hour waiting for it which was unpleasant. I felt really bad because this lady and her 2 year old child were waiting for us and not really wrapped in warm clothing and then they missed the bus when it finally came T T
Anyway we made our way to the mall and had some pretzels and then watched Thor which was pretty much good all because of Loki (criessss fangirllinggggg). Then we headed back and on the bus back this man was talking to us about super heroes and it was actually a super interesting experience because I was thinking about it and like, people are not scary at all I don't know why people get the notion that living in a big city needs to be scary and shit like all the people I see on the bus are really friendly and shit and I'm sure there are bad people too but like, why should I just assume that everyone is going to try to rob me or something like there's nothing wrong with being friendly and careful at the same time you know?
Like this guy was legit talking passionately and I mean /passionately/ about super heroes and his opinions and whatnot and like he pulled out a fucking copy of Iron Man from his backpack and I was like why does he keep that in there but like it was really funny and like I was having a normal human conversation with this stranger old man and it wasn't scary at all like he's just a person you know?
The more I experience people here in Austin the less afraid I am of people I mean there have been a few instances where I really was frightened but for the most part people are generally accepting and leave you alone even if they're initially kind of freaky.
The only time I've legit been scared was when some man downtown followed me around asking me if I wanted some of his cigarette like he legit followed us across the street and stuff and I was really freaked out but other than that I think I've handled the stranger thing pretty well like I talk to people and am respectful and I think that's a lot better than assuming theyre bad people and judging them.......
Idk like lately I've just been really angry when people judge people based on the way they live or act like I don't think anyone has the right to judge people because you don't know what they've gone through or what kind of situation they are in so what gives you the right to judge them like idk.
Lately it has been kind of a goal of mine to just smile at people I see even if they intimidate me because tbh I just find people really interesting like everyone is so /different/ it's crazy idK but yeah sometimes I smile at people and they look at me funny T T But then for some reason I get really embarrassed around people I know and look away so I'm confused why is it easier with strangers than other people ahahaha ok im rambling on
ANYway so now I am in my dorm and I might watch the MAMAs oorrr I might watch a drama or who knows what
That is all for now goodbye ~~~
Currently listening to: Mr. Mr. - Do You Feel Me
Monday, September 23, 2013
Otherwise
Things have been great besides all of that ~*~emotional~*~ crap.
I went to a Chuseok festival type thing at a junior high school in Austin and it was a lot of fun. I enjoyed learning about traditional Korean games and things and I loved being around people who appreciate Korea as much as I do. It was interesting because everyone there was speaking Korean and I understood a lot of it which made me proud.
I also went to my first UT football game and saw a lot of different kinds of people. I ushered as volunteer/I-got-free-membership-for-a-club-if-I-did-it and it was really fun to see all the types of people that go to football games.
One man asked me why I was working; he thought I got in trouble skipping classes or something and that's why i was an usher and was surprised when I told him I volunteered as part of the Korean Undergraduate Students Association. He was like, "But you're not Korean" and thought maybe it was part of my degree. It's funny how many people are so shocked that someone can like a culture that is not their own. It's 2013 goddamnit why is that so surprising. If I were Chinese he wouldn't have told me that which is kind of a funny thing to think about.
Anyway so then there was this other old man who passed by me and said, "You're really cute!" and I was really fucking creeped out but I am assuming he was drunk.
There were some British guys all dressed in neon colors and they saw the view from the top of the stadium and said "Wow this is /really/ something" and it was kind of cool to see people so fascinated by something that is right at home for me. It made me feel like I was a part of something great. Then compared to other people who saw that their seats were all the way at the top and rolled their eyes and were frustrated by it and complaining. I think people sometimes let their appreciation for something dwindle because of their expectations and it's kind of sad. One guy even made a point of coming down and telling me how mad he was about his seats like there was something I could do about it right....
Anyway there were just a lot of really interesting different people and I got to know a couple of the people in my club as well which was really pretty cool.
I just hope they don't silently wish I wasn't there. I mean...some people don't like it when white people are so interested in their culture. I'll never understand why because then people also get mad when white people are racist or disregard other cultures buuut whatever. I just hope that these people don't feel burdened by me. I want to make friends with them but I feel like they won't like me. Or at least...I feel like they won't want me around.
So after when they were all talking about doing something I just left without saying bye which I realize may have been rude but I didn't want them to feel obligated to invite me.
Anyway, so far this semester has been fun. I have Calculus homework due tonight and I really don't want to do it buuut oh well I better do it........
I went to a Chuseok festival type thing at a junior high school in Austin and it was a lot of fun. I enjoyed learning about traditional Korean games and things and I loved being around people who appreciate Korea as much as I do. It was interesting because everyone there was speaking Korean and I understood a lot of it which made me proud.
I also went to my first UT football game and saw a lot of different kinds of people. I ushered as volunteer/I-got-free-membership-for-a-club-if-I-did-it and it was really fun to see all the types of people that go to football games.
One man asked me why I was working; he thought I got in trouble skipping classes or something and that's why i was an usher and was surprised when I told him I volunteered as part of the Korean Undergraduate Students Association. He was like, "But you're not Korean" and thought maybe it was part of my degree. It's funny how many people are so shocked that someone can like a culture that is not their own. It's 2013 goddamnit why is that so surprising. If I were Chinese he wouldn't have told me that which is kind of a funny thing to think about.
Anyway so then there was this other old man who passed by me and said, "You're really cute!" and I was really fucking creeped out but I am assuming he was drunk.
There were some British guys all dressed in neon colors and they saw the view from the top of the stadium and said "Wow this is /really/ something" and it was kind of cool to see people so fascinated by something that is right at home for me. It made me feel like I was a part of something great. Then compared to other people who saw that their seats were all the way at the top and rolled their eyes and were frustrated by it and complaining. I think people sometimes let their appreciation for something dwindle because of their expectations and it's kind of sad. One guy even made a point of coming down and telling me how mad he was about his seats like there was something I could do about it right....
Anyway there were just a lot of really interesting different people and I got to know a couple of the people in my club as well which was really pretty cool.
I just hope they don't silently wish I wasn't there. I mean...some people don't like it when white people are so interested in their culture. I'll never understand why because then people also get mad when white people are racist or disregard other cultures buuut whatever. I just hope that these people don't feel burdened by me. I want to make friends with them but I feel like they won't like me. Or at least...I feel like they won't want me around.
So after when they were all talking about doing something I just left without saying bye which I realize may have been rude but I didn't want them to feel obligated to invite me.
Anyway, so far this semester has been fun. I have Calculus homework due tonight and I really don't want to do it buuut oh well I better do it........
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Best Advice I've Heard
Quick Update: Registering for classes made me realize how important it is to be prepared and have back up plans beforehand if things don't go your way. Now I'm in Waco, TX with my sister and so far it's been very relaxing, mainly because it isn't nearly as busy here.
Anyway, I met a friend during Orientation and we were talking, and I wondered why it was so easy for her to befriend people and be humble about it. "How are you so likeable?" I asked.
This is what she answered:
Once you realize that no one is perfect, you can be a friend to anyone.
Pondering this made me realize that I, myself, have suffered from judging people by the little things about them that I disagree with. They might be people I could become close friends with, but if there's one thing that I don't like, I call it a "deal-breaker" and don't even attempt at a relationship.
Now that I think about it this is a terrible excuse to not become friends with someone and I think it may be the reason that I have a hard time being close to people.
Once we accept that people are different and everyone has their quirks and mistakes, we can literally accept anyone as a friend.
Okay last thing. So at Orientation they asked us to like, stand up for which statements we agreed with or related to and they read a list of statements and one of them was "Are you homophobic."
No one stood up. Not meaning no one was a homophobe...but rather no one admitted to it.
It's interesting that the things that are hardest for us to admit are things that may offend other people. Sure, everyone is entitled to an opinion but when that opinion disagrees with someone else's lifestyle, it becomes "controversial."
Honestly, I don't know how I feel about this. Shouldn't we be comfortable enough in our opinions to be able to admit to them? Why do we have to hide our opinions because it may disagree with someone else's?
I'm not saying I am homophobic nor that I am not, but the fact that no one admitted to it, yet people admitted to self-harm, being ashamed of their body, etc, was really interesting.
People admit their insecurities about themselves, but not about other people? Maybe this is exactly why we judge people so much. We aren't even comfortable enough in our own opinions to accept other peoples'.
Anyway, I met a friend during Orientation and we were talking, and I wondered why it was so easy for her to befriend people and be humble about it. "How are you so likeable?" I asked.
This is what she answered:
Once you realize that no one is perfect, you can be a friend to anyone.
Pondering this made me realize that I, myself, have suffered from judging people by the little things about them that I disagree with. They might be people I could become close friends with, but if there's one thing that I don't like, I call it a "deal-breaker" and don't even attempt at a relationship.
Now that I think about it this is a terrible excuse to not become friends with someone and I think it may be the reason that I have a hard time being close to people.
Once we accept that people are different and everyone has their quirks and mistakes, we can literally accept anyone as a friend.
Okay last thing. So at Orientation they asked us to like, stand up for which statements we agreed with or related to and they read a list of statements and one of them was "Are you homophobic."
No one stood up. Not meaning no one was a homophobe...but rather no one admitted to it.
It's interesting that the things that are hardest for us to admit are things that may offend other people. Sure, everyone is entitled to an opinion but when that opinion disagrees with someone else's lifestyle, it becomes "controversial."
Honestly, I don't know how I feel about this. Shouldn't we be comfortable enough in our opinions to be able to admit to them? Why do we have to hide our opinions because it may disagree with someone else's?
I'm not saying I am homophobic nor that I am not, but the fact that no one admitted to it, yet people admitted to self-harm, being ashamed of their body, etc, was really interesting.
People admit their insecurities about themselves, but not about other people? Maybe this is exactly why we judge people so much. We aren't even comfortable enough in our own opinions to accept other peoples'.
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